Today has been almost like what my new life will be. Alone.
My former parents’ in-law came today and took those pavers they had wanted to so badly.
I stayed up until almost 5am in the hopes that I would sleep until they had all left, unfortunately my bladder couldn’t hold out.
So I got up and relieved myself and hoped to go back to sleep. I couldn’t. What I heard was very interesting however.
My soon to be ex-wife finally told her parents just what she’s doing. They were obviously not happy about it. Her mom said “You are rushing things, and it’s not good.” Most of the time, I wouldn’t agree with her mother – but I do on this. She’s running, and I wished she would just tell me what she running from or to.
Once they left, I hit the road and went to my other ex’s to see my daughter and get away. We talked and had some good times. Once my current wife and daughter left, I went back home. I’ve been watching Netflix and getting used to the beauty of the silence in my home.
It’s dark, and depressing. It’s my new normal. Thankfully Netflix does a good job of helping me escape. I know there’s a big chunk of me that needs to do just that right now, I just worry about being stuck in this world.